Long time no talk!
My last post was in April, yikes! I'm sure as many of you guessed by the long delay, I fell off the bandwagon. I was doing really good through about June and then I just quit. I let a couple of cheat meals turn into cheat weeks and then into cheat months. It has been bad. And surprise, surprise, my weight is back up.
What a constant battle this is.
I have got to find a way to get tougher mentally. It is all a mind game. I am constantly beating myself up for cheating, but then I just cheat some more. I get in the mindset of "well, I've already eaten horribly this week, what is the point of starting good now? I'll start again on Monday..." Then Monday comes along and I see that I have a few dinners out planned or work lunches and I say to myself "This isn't a good week to start, there is too much going on, I'll wait till next week." And the next thing you know, it is October and all my weight has come back on. Sound familiar to anyone?
So what am I doing now? Well, I am starting again! My lovely sister (A nutrition major) calculated my daily recommended proteins, carbs, fats, and calories. So I am trying to stick to what she calculated for me. I am not trying to be all clean like before. It honestly became too tough for me to follow after a while. I was being a bit too strict and then got easily bored and when I cheated, they were real bad cheats. Maybe if I can get all the eating under control first, then I can start perfecting it and end up "clean" in the end. But I don't want to make changes that are too extreme at first because that tends to end in failure for me.
I am also going to try running. We have a treadmill in the garage and we have a great neighborhood for running. For some reason, running really intimidates me. But I really think it could be something that would help with the weight loss. I have read plenty of success stories of others that lost a ton of weight doing it! I also think it is a good exercise because I don't really need specific equipment, I don't need to go to a class, and I could do it anywhere, even when I am traveling.
I reached out and asked for some advice on facebook from other runners. A recurring theme was them telling me to just sign up for a race and then train. I feel so intimidated to sign up for something when I know right now I couldn't finish a 5k. But I do believe that could be the push I need to get going.
My plan is to sign up for a 5k that is the first weekend of December. That gives me about 5 weeks to be able to run 3 miles. I think it will be tough, but possible. After that, I think I might try the Krispy Kreme Challenge in February (skipping eating the donuts). That challenge is 5 miles, so it will keep me moving towards the next goal. I am strongly considering signing up for the Raleigh Rock-N-Roll Half in April. The thought of running 13.1 miles terrifies me. But how horrible is it to never sign up just because I am scared? There is no time like the present right? And it will give me something to always be working towards.
So here goes nothing!
